Just to hold you over for the next week!

I realize that throughout this lovely hiatus I’ve done a great job of disappointing my frequent readers. this week will be no exception, as I am entering semester finals week. Accordingly, I found another questionnaire to answer, since they’re incredibly fun to answer and, in my opinion, even more fun to read. I’ll officially be OFF HIATUS on December 19th, 2008! Until then, wish me uck on my finals!

Are you completely over your last relationship?
Yes… if u wanna put it like that…

Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend in 6 months?
I don’t know!

Have you ever had a best friend?
I guess, but they all just fade away

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year?
Definitely, but in the kind of way that’s not easy to pinpoint.

Are you taller than 5′6″?
Yeppers- I’m pretty much the median height of my parents.

Who is the last person to send you a message on myspace?
I don’t have a myspace, but I’ll adapt this to “wrote on your wall on facebook” in which case it was a very old friend.

Are you jealous of anyone right now?
Beyond belief! One of my friends is going to Hawaii right after exams! Cheeky monkey…

Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
Depends on if I know what’s liable to happen in the day.

How many kids do you want?
I’m not thinking that far ahead in my life… sorry!

Have you cried today?
No, but I’ve felt like it…

What’s the connection between you and the last person that called you?
She’s a good friend, I guess… again, sparks fade…

Hold hands with anyone today?
Nope

What will you be doing tomorrow?
Studying 24/7

Who is the last person to send you a text?
The good friend who also called me

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
Probably, considering the people I know. But if they do, I’d like them to stop, please and thank you.

Does anyone hate you?
Yeah but hey, as I like to say- if you don’t have enemies then you’ve never had friends.

Is there any emotion you’re trying to avoid right now?
Anxiety

Is it difficult for you to look into someone’s eyes when you are telling them how you feel?
Extremely. I hate being brutally honest, but usually my sarcasticism tells how I really feel.

Money or love?

Love

Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Yes- that’s why when I have no one else to lean on, I depend on myself.

What would be harder for you, tell someone you love them or you don’ t?
Telling someone you don’t love them seems like one of the hardest things to do.

Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?
Probably- that’s some majorly good karma.

If someone likes you, would you want them to tell you?
Yes!!! But I know that whenever I like someone, I never tell them and end up living in regret for long periods of time.

Is there something that you haven’t told anyone but would like to?
Yes, and it’ll probably take a few more years of isolation.

Has anyone ever told you they’re in love with you?
No.

What are you doing tonight?
Studying and listening to Kitsune Noir mixtapes (which are LOVELY. Check him out on the blogroll!)

When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
When I went to band camp.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Is that a challenge?!?! Haha… yes

Did you date anyone last summer?
Nope.

Do you trust all of your friends?
I don’t really trust anyone anymore, to be perfectly honest. I have a very heavy, fragile heart- it’d take a split second to be broken.

Have you ever been nice to someone who treated you like crap?
You know it, but I’ve begun to stop. I’ve gone through too much bull ish (Urban Dictonary FTW) to have to deal with more from people I don’t need.

Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with a M?
Cheeky monkey…

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
I could, but wouldn’t.

The current person you like, how long were you interested in them?
What seems like forever.

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?

Best year ever! Yeah, that happened.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
No, but a lot of crap happens to me. A lot of the time, I deal with it. Worse things could happen.

What’s your favorite season?
Winter, if I have a good coat and nice boots, which I currently don’t.

Are you in a good mood?
I’m not sure- I’m kind of neutral right now. The mixtape is putting my mind at rest.

Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call, but never do?
I don’t use my phone a lot.

Do you believe exes can be friends?
Yeah.

Have you ever hated someone but then ended up liking them?
When I was really young, yes.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Definitely.

When is the last time you got really frustrated?
Yesterday.

Do you miss your past?
Yes, but time can’t stop every time happy moments pass. It must keep going.

Do you ever think “what if” about anything?
I think “what if” about almost everything!

Are you happy with the way things are going?
Not really, but I’m taking it all in stride.

In the past week have you cried?
No, but I’ve felt like it.

Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
Forward a week, to skip my finals!

Do you miss someone?
Desperately.

Last December how was your heart?
Beating… ? What kinda question is that? No strokes or heart attacks, so it was okay!

When was the last time you went camping?
Winter discovery

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
I think so! (Wow, right after I read this question and typed my answer, I smiled very intensely… XD)

What was the last thing you purchased?
A pre-exam goodie bag for my older sis and a laminated periodic table.

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Yep- family.

Do you think you would be a good parent?
One day, in the far far future.

What are you wearing on your feet?
Nothing, but I’m seconds away from putting on socks and gloves and a hat because my room is FREEZING!

Do you usually have weird dreams?
Yes- I like to call some of them my “raven” dreams.

What color is your keyboard?
Black (like my skin- XD XD XD)

How has this past week been for you?
Stressful, but very enlightening.

Any fun plans for today?
Nope, but fun plans for Monday.

Is there a reason for your MySpace song?
As I said, no Myspace.

What song is stuck in your head?
The song I’m listening to right now… I don’t know exactly what it’s called, but it’ll be on my “Playlist of Addiction” soon.

Will this weekend be a good one?
Probably not.

Is your phone close to you?
Yes, it’s buried under a pile of crap next to my bed.

Is anyone interested in you right now?
I don’t think so.

Where does most of your family live?
Ohio/Virginia/California

Rent a movie or go to movies?
Go to the movies with friends!

What were you doing this morning at 7am?
Sleeping.

What were you doing at 1 AM this morning?
Yet again, sleeping. I slept for a very long while last night. I think I got to bed at about 8 PM, and awoke at 9 AM.

Next vacation you’re going on?
I don’t know- I’m just praying for an escape in the next 10 years!

What’s your hair look like today?
Crap- I need to do some serious curling.

Do you call anybody by their last name?
Yes, but I try not to.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
A couple of days ago, when this girl was having an “I was so right” party. It was very obnixious.

Hope this tides all of you over for the next week. I love you all, and hope you have an okay week!

Greek Types of Love mean No Need for No Rainbows

This summer, I finally decided to get a Facebook page. I was pretty excited about it because I would finally get to know what all of the hype was about. I’ve had the page for about 2 months, and something has been bothering me more and more. But before we fully submerge into this post, let’s learn a little bit about love.

Now, personally, I like to think of love in the way of the Greeks; there are many different ways to describe the feeling. So, here’s give a quick and dirty summary of the Greek types of love:

Eros is a passionate, longing, sensual love, commonly referred to as a romance. Where the word ‘erotic’ comes from. (Moving on…)

Agape is an unconditional love, often meaning affection. For example, the love between husband and wife (’till death do us part is where agape comes in). Often used religiously in The Bible.

Storge is very similar to Agape, only exclusively used to describe love and affection between family members, most of the time.

Thelema is the desire to do something, as in “I would love to be a musician”.

Philia, my personal favorite, is the love between friends; friendship. This is what this post is about. Now, let’s continue to my annoyance, shall we?

Everyone puts photos on Facebook. This isn’t what bothers me, but it’s important in explaining my annoyance. Everyone has beautiful pictures of their friends and family, them having fun, and, if they’re a girl, a picture with puckered lips (pucker picture.) However, on many photos of friends hanging out together, there’s always someone from the picture commenting on this photo with something similar to/exactly like this: Oh, this was so much fun! I love you guys! (no homo).

Now, let’s get something straight. I am a straight woman who loves her men, but is the whole no homo/no rainbows/no gayness thing really, really necessary? Trust me, if your status says you’re straight, I’ll believe you. It really does show how insecure people are about their own sexuality, that they really feel it necessary to show love for friends and fear of their questioning of sexual orientation, at the same time. Which is why I propose that we use Philia more often. It’s not as blatantly offensive as “No homo”, and, if you’re that insecure about your sexuality, it’s a smart way to express friendship. Because I’m tired of how narrow-minded and homophobic Americans are seeming nowadays. It’s sickening, and we need to do something about it. We need to change for the better.

VID OF THE DAY: He’s Awesome

So, I was on stickam last night and this guy was on. We were talking about how he looks like an introvert and America’s Best Dance Crew and stuff like that, and I thought he was pretty cool. I checked out his videos, and he is really cool and funny, so watch, comment, rate, subscribe, favorite, friend, and everything in between!

Symphony of Lasts: Part 2

With three weeks left, it’s no wonder I feel like all of this will turn into a dull, blurry memory in the back of my mind. Next week is, of course, finals week; the most stressful week of the entire year. I hate finals. But after finals, it’s two weeks of smooth sailing.

It’s been seeming as though long-time friends are beginning to drift away before my very eyes. In a way, it’s scary, because it’s so hard to let go of people, without a definite date of return. But in other ways, it is empowering. It’s empowering to be able to let go of people you love, and happily tell them that goodbye’s never last forever.

There is no such thing as a last goodbye.

VID OF THE DAY: Too Cute!

I’ve made a lot of blogs about friendship before, but this video is cute and adorable and is the epitome of the definition of friendship. Stay cute!

THANK YOU!!!

Vazquez- You’re still in the 90’s…

Calcagno007- In case you don’t remember, he’s not purple anymore!

RubberShower- I’m sorry, but you’re Daria’s twin… it’s undeniable.

Lamarag- We rocked it…

MCR Lover- We missed you there! It was horrible…

LISTEN TO THIS: LAMARAG:: Ivoryline

Ivoryline is a modern Christian rock band, with an addictive sound that will rent a condo in the middle of your mind (awesome metaphor, right?) Their sound is very unique, reminiscent of nothing and everything you’ve heard before (sound’s crazy? Listen to them.) Following many rock standards, the group uses loud guitars and controlled vocals to produce a distinctive sound. However, my favorite song by the group, “The Last Words”, has more of a soft rock feel, adding an orchestra and not as much guitar to pull across the lyrical message of, what I interpret as the passing of a loved one and the pain a close friend or family member has while grieving. The song is a beautiful song, and Ivoryline is a band that shouldn’t be forgotten anytime soon. Lamarag is one of my closest friend. She is destined to become an artist, because, as much as she likes to ignore this fact, it is her passion. She listens to a lot of Christian rock, and, coincidentally, is a huge Switchfoot fan.

Next Week Is Special

Hi everyone! Just writing to let everyone know that next week, the Listen To This segment will include artist choices made by my friends. The posts will be running all week, no matter what. I keep friends with very eclectic taste, so it won’t be a stretch. Just expect more variation, because I’m going to have a field day. Trust me.

UPDATE: Monday to Friday instead. Sorry.

Excuses

Okay, everybody. Hello. I’ve been über busy this week. I throw discus and shot put after school, while sparingly taking a day off for energy bike (co-Student Director!) It’s been a really busy week, but it’s been a good one. I was nominated for citizenship award at my school, which still hasn’t really sunk in yet. I remember a time when I would hurt people because I was being hurt. Now, I know that when someone hurts me, it’s because, whether they like it or not, they’ve been hurt too many times before. Now, I try to maintain a stable life, trying to move around my depression. But I’ve realized that the pain I feel has gotten me to great places. When I lost an election last year, it inspired me to start songwriting. When I lost my father, after I got over grieving, he inspired me to love each day the way it is. When I have to sit through my sister’s nonsense every day, it inspires me to leave the drama with my mom. Anyway, my excuse for not blogging this week is that I’ve had a lot going on, and it’s been an overwhelming week. I’m sorry! I’ll try even harder next week, I promise!

Epiphany: Favorite Ten

Okay, so I just realized that now, to tell people where I’m coming from, I need to make a ten best songs list. But, this will just be a ten favorites list.

“Sweetest Goodbye” Maroon 5- The first time I listened to this song, I fell in love with Maroon 5. This song can be interpreted in many different ways, and is, debatably, my favorite Maroon 5 song because of it’s astounding vocals and melodies.

“9 Crimes” Damien Rice and Lisa Hannigan- This song is so raw and has so much emotion put into it by both artists, it’s such a pleasure to listen to.

“Sleeping to Dream” Jason Mraz- This was so hard to choose, because anything he records live is absolutely amazing. I encourage everyone to buy all of his albums, but especially Selections for Friends, because it’s absolutely amazing. This lullaby radiates passion and relaxation, and can be listened to over and over without becoming annoying, which is always a test of greatness for any song.

“Get a move on” Mr. Scruff- Amazing horns and overall peppy melody. A pleasure to hear. The beat is amazing for a jazz song, and I’m inclined to say that this song is recognizable from the Amanda Bynes movie, What A Girl Wants.

“I Don’t Love You” My Chemical Romance- A lot of rock groups have trouble with love songs, but this song shows the range of My Chemical Romance, and shows that they’re more than an almost-emo rock band. I love this song because it’s vocals are amazing, and the guitar riffs are also breath-taking.

“Heard ‘em Say” Kanye West feat. Adam Levine (Maroon 5)- This song didn’t get as famous as it should’ve, but it’s an amazing song. First of all, I appreciate the amazing raw piano in this song. Kudos to that. Second of all, Adam Levine wrote the chorus of this song, then made “Nothing Lasts Forever” with the same chorus. He didn’t steal it. That has needed clarification time and time again. Nonetheless, it’s an awesome chorus! This song has a real message, an amazing melody, and is definitely a big favorite of mine.

“Somewhere Over The Rainbow (cover)” Eva Cassidy- This song is a favorite because it has an emotional attachment to me. One of my favorite memories is of me, my dad, and my sister driving home and listening to this album, and this song would come on. My dad loved this song so much, and he told us what a great song it was. With time, I came to love this song, because it keeps the memories of my dad from fading away. Eva Cassidy’s cover of “Somewhere Over the Rainbow” is simply golden because of how natural her voice is and how her melodies are almost tranquilizing.

“Unforgettable” Nat King Cole and Natalie Cole- I grew up listening to Natalie Cole, and her voice is amazing. I have loved this song for a very long time, and I think that everyone should just take the time to listen to Natalie for a while, because her songs are all stunning.

“Ch-Ch-Check It Out” The Beastie Boys- YOU SHOULD HAVE AT LEAST ONE BEASTIE BOYS SONG ON YOUR IPOD RIGHT NOW. GO AHEAD. CHECK IT. IF YOU DON’T, DON’T TALK TO ME UNTIL YOU GET ONE.

“If I Fell” The Beatles- I’m sorry, but this is my favorite Beatles song. I know it’s a bit of a stretch, since it’s a love song, but I can’t help it. I just love this song. Deal with it.

There it goes. This topic will probably be returning because I have so many favorites, it’s so hard to name only ten.